I've also really wanted to heal physically in terms of making sure I'm having well balanced meals and moving my body in a variety of ways, but because I've been sick I only get to focus on drinking lots of water, tea, resting, and minimizing all forms of stress. I'm really looking forward to being well again so that I can dance, sing, stretch, and play without having to worry about a nasty cough or side pains. They're just no fun!
I talked to my massage therapist recently about the different ways that touch, massage specifically, can be very healing for a person. He emphasized the importance of the person giving the massage being able to handle the energy of the other person. This reminded me of how I'm very sensitive to the energy of other people. If they're wound up and excited, I get the same way. If they're calm and laid back so am I.
In my life, I've definitely had to work through big pitfalls in my own energy. I had extreme anxiety problems for a few years of my life, and I had to learn to let go of all that nervous tension and be calm. I also suffered through intense depression and had to learn to honor myself and refocus that negative energy into creativity. I am an absurdly passionate person, and I realize that I have to be mindful of where that passion is going.
Lately I've realized that a ton of my emotional and psychological energy has been fed into a black hole. It goes no where which upsets me, and then I just end up being negative! I've given it away without really thinking about it, and it's time for me to reclaim it for myself. I owe it to myself to not just give away that passion. I'm very excited to see all the things I can do and be when my time, love, and energy are my own!
Achievements for 04/11/10: Met with an old friend. Got a massage. Started counseling. Met some incredible new people to work with. Cammed more than I probably should have! Visited with good friends.
