While I like being in the company of family and good friends, I also relish the opportunity to be alone. I definitely have a certain amount of time each day that I like being solitary in, otherwise I can start to feel overwhelmed. I like being organised and introspective, and I think I do these best when I'm by myself. Then again, I don't necessarily have to be in isolation to be alone. I can be in a huge group of people and be alone. I found out this weekend at Further Confusion, that there are times when I'm with a ton of people and love feeling like I'm by myself among them.
Sometimes I feel like a relationship, not necessarily a romantic one, can be stifling. It can be hard to fully stretch your wings and taste everything the world has to offer. You want to compromise, because you want to be with the other person. But there are times when solitude is wonderful, because then you don't have to worry about the other person. I found that on the dance floor a lot of times other people will get all up in your business and try to make designs on you. Even if you just dance, you're hindered by their movements. I can't hop and jive and shimmy like I normally would if someone's right up on me. I felt truly euphoric when I danced by myself. I could feel the beat and move myself exactly how I wanted to, without any hindrances. Sometimes it's nice to dance with other people, and sometimes it's wonderful to dance alone.
